its alright. its ok. i'm so much better without you.

ashley tisdale? not really a fan. but i was looking through old songs a while ago and this song came on. and i couldn't help but think of them.

everything about it is so true. just thinking about it makes me want to cry. they did betray me. they didn't care about me. it was just a game. and now i am so much stronger.

the pain they put me through. no one understands. i would go home and cry myself to sleep every night at one point. i have never felt so low. at the time it seemed as thought it were a loss that our friendships were breaking. now i realize it was all serendipity. i wanted to be friends with them forever. but i can see how much better it turned out to be. i see the paths they are going down. and i'm glad i didn't follow.

i'm so grateful for the amazing friends that i have now. i'm so glad that they never gave up on me. they were always there for me. even when i sometimes wasn't for them.

i know that that was the most important decision i have ever made. i am glad i made the right one. looking back i can see what they did to me. they were slowly burning me down. and i'm the only one that understands. the only one that knows how they made me feel. the only one that could make that decision.

i know what an influence friends make in my life now. how important it is to choose good ones. and i am so grateful that i have a heavenly father who watches over me. he knew what was best for me all along and guided me to make the right choice. i love him so much and i am so grateful for him in my life. (: