kneel.

the optimistic attitude i woke up with seemed to fade as the day went on. no matter how hard i tried my negative feelings got the best of me. and everything seemed to go wrong.

the simple little things, that usually put a smile on my face, never seemed to come. and although i was surrounded by friends i felt completely alone. 

going throughout the day i tried not to let my emotions show. on the outside i may or may not have seemed perfectly okay. i would smile and wave at friends, and laugh like any other day. but on the inside i was dying. crying in school isn't something i do. especially where i had no excuse as to why. so i held back the tears. of frustration, confusion, and all those other little things that made me want to cry. 

when i got home, i continued to put on the act that everything was okay until i could escape to my room. i opened up a new post, and suddenly everything that i had been kept in was released. and as the words started to flow out, the tears followed. all that had been weighing me down. everything i had bottled up flowed onto the page. eventually the words ran out, i felt slightly better but the feelings of confusion and frustration lingered.  

i continued to feel like no one understood. when i remembered the lesson from young womens a few weeks ago. that when you feel alone, turn to the Lord. so i opened up my heart. and poured it all out to him. the tears continued to stream out. but changed from tears of grief and frustration to tears of relief, and happiness. i know that i never was alone. and when things get to hard to stand... kneel. because your Heavenly Father is always there for you. and he will always understand (: