titleless.

remember this post? 

scratch that. 

because here it is 

(orignially written  yesterday)

i'm lacking in creativity today, and couldn't come up with a title. 

or any creative way to post everything that has currently been occupying my mind.

which obviously is a lot.

so here is everything. just completely dumped...

whatever the situation.

chances are. i have a song and or playlist for it.

however my day went, i guarantee a song could match it. 

lately i've been listening to the /: playlist. 

because sometimes things don't work out, and music seems to make it better.

boys. 

why don't they get it? they just don't. 

and i sometimes really wish they did... 

because everything would be so much easier.

when i blog, it's mainly for my own sanity. 

if i say something that offends you, don't feel obligated to continue reading. 

if reading it bring you entertainment, humor, or whatever,

thanks. it feels good to know my writing is the cause of your happiness (:

me and her, we used to be friends. in fact you were considered on of my best. 

and just because i talked to "your guy" doesn't mean he'll fall madly in love with me. 

and i promise, i'm not trying to steal everyone's boyfriends!

i like one kid. who as far as i'm concerned was and still is available.

and next time you have a problem. please tell me. not everyone else...

david archuleta, taylor swift, and jesse mccartney

i'm addicted.

crying is theraputic. so don't hold back the tears. 

or be embarrassed. because i cry. over everything. 

literally. never in public.

but curled up in my bed. or sprawled out on the floor. 

and music is almost always playing. 

dear boy, i'm really confused. 

please will you just tell me... or let me know what you're thinking.
actually speaking about anything at all would be sufficient. 

we used to talk, and then suddenly it stopped? 

and we used to be friends. and you completely ignore me now. 

and nothing even happened...

 please let me know what's going on. 

because what ever this is... it hurts.

sometimes you trust someone. 100%.
and tell them absolutely everything.  they find out a secret about you. and decide to keep it from you...
and guess what? it does kinda feel like a punch in the gut. 

you can make up excuses about how you don't want a fight, but even if that's what it resulted in,
i always thought you would be on my side no matter what. because i know i'd be on yours...

and most importantly... i'm so grateful for those friends that i have that are by my side through literally everything. and the ones that no matter what, are positive about things, and assure me it will work out. because i could not do it without you (:

really my life isn't that terrible. 

i know i just made it seem like it was. but really it's not.

 there may be a few people of whom i'm a little (or lot) irked with. but hey, that's life.

and i might like a boy. but whatever, i have amazing friends, and a loving Heavenly Father who are always there for me. and that's really what matters (: