back in time..

8/6/11

maybe tom is coming super early, or maybe it had just been to long since i cried..
but today was one of the days where i had to hold back the tears..
the only kid i really enjoy to work with, quit today. and a lot of times, he was the only thing that would keep me going. through the school year, even if i was stressed, he was going to be the reason that i would look forward to coming to work anyways. and now i'm just stuck with a bunch of awkward, weird people..
my mind was racing. and i was on the verge of tears all day.. i was full doubt. i doubted whether or not i really wanted to have a job. and if this was even the right thing for me right now. i was scared out of my mind for high school, wondering whether or not i'd be able to keep up on the homework and if i'd have good teachers.
and i missed my best friends. the ones that my days used to be filled with. the ones i'd play with all the time. this summer i guess we've all just been super busy at different times.. and definitely haven't spent enough time with each other. i need them.. more than anything..
it was one of the days where i spent to long getting things out of the freezer simply just because i needed alone time. time to pray and say Heavenly Father help me just to make it through this shift without crying. please.
i came home, came down to my room and let the tears start to pour out.. 
life goes on. and i can do this... right?

one month later: it wasn't the end. and things did get better... 

and because, 

"until you've experienced the not so great parts of life, you'll never be able to see all of it's goodness and beauty."