when i should be asleep. i blog.

i hope you're a better person than i, and decided to start your homework sometime before 10:30pm, the night before it's due. story of my life. but, it's alright. i just finished. now rewarding myself with blogging. 

before starting my homework, i may have read all 56 new posts in google reader, had a too long texting conversation. and looked up music for a while. after getting  home from young women's around 8:45.

(i'm super good at self-motivation and not procrastinating..)

even though i should be asleep. i'm here. cause, i need to sort out these thoughts.  

it might not make sense, but what the heck. 

some days, blogs aren't for profound words and adorable pictures. they're simply for venting. 

(you aren't a fan of boy-related high school drama? i advise you end your reading now.)

let me introduce you to boy #1. 
honestly, he's close to perfect. sends the cutest texts ever. and not only that, but says the sweetest things in person too. he makes me feel like the most important girl in the entire world . he truly is my best friend. and he lifts me up when i'm having a terrible day, does everything perfectly the way he should. and he's what most girls would instantly call their prince charming.
to keep his identity secret, we'll leave out personal details, but he is super athletic with sparkly blue eyes. and yes, he is this same boy that seems to be popping up all over this blog, and the one mentioned on august 22. the first day of the school year.

and boy #2.
he hasn't been mentioned on this blog. but he appeared in my journal all three times i saw him in person before sophomore year started. 1.summer 2010, working snow shack with nicole. 2. oak canyon vs. pg track meet. and 3. the oak canyon party a while back. we didn't talk until encounter #3, which was the most awkward ever experience being introduced to someone, and then later me trying to be social towards him, being completely uninterested. then i talked to him a couple times this year. but mostly just dreamt (now a word) and admired from afar... and melted every time he came into view. well last week not only did he decide to talk to me, but also confess his secret admiration for me and my best friend. and also texted me super adorable things, but constantly brought up that he didn't want to 'interfere' with boy #1 and i. understand, this kid is gorgeous. goodness. it's ridiculous.. (annd, he too has amazing blue eyes)

problems: 

main problem: i like boy #1 so much. so soo much. and i like #2 a lot. 

-both boys like me. (not just inferring so, they've both confessed of it to me.)

-i have a best friend who likes boy #1 very very much. 

-boy #2 also likes another of my best friends, whom i'm convinced likes him back. 

honestly it's a face you can't resist. 

-there's about a million and two other boys who manage to catch my eye and i claim i'm marrying. 

-hah. well liking multiple guys isn't a problem, correct? (because we're just best friends anyways..)

until you get to lunch and they hang out on opposite ends of the room. and they both want to hang out on weekends. and they both get jealous when you talk to the other..  

-it's 12:07am. and i can't even wake up on time when i go to bed two hours earlier.  

-i've just made myself sound like some boy crazy girl.

oh well. 

...obviously i'm just an indecisive 15 year old girl.