but considering how busy i've been. it's just been tucked away. the feelings kept hidden. and honestly, i've been to happy to let it affect my mood. but it's still there. and maybe it's time to uncover it again. some pieces..
i still think about him, but the feeling's gone. completely. no regret, hate, love, envy. there's nothing there anymore. it's just an empty hole. i still long to call that other boy mine. but i've accepted that's not going to happen. we're becoming better friends. and that makes me happier than anything. he doesn't like relationships, and i respect that so much.
i still think about him, but the feeling's gone. completely. no regret, hate, love, envy. there's nothing there anymore. it's just an empty hole. i still long to call that other boy mine. but i've accepted that's not going to happen. we're becoming better friends. and that makes me happier than anything. he doesn't like relationships, and i respect that so much.
one of my biggest fears. just being completely forgotten. became a reality. with one of the people in my life who i cared about most. and it was hard. because it really does take a toll on your feeling of self worth. to know that someone who you meant so much to, can so easily just move on. and february was rough for me. to see him and know the inevitable had happened. i became just another face in the halls.
sometimes i wonder if she knew. the history of everything. or if she got the same story i did. i'm proud of myself for being strong. for saying no, when i did. and not letting myself accept less than what i know i'm worth. i'm proud that i didn't give in when he asked for me back. over and over and over. ironic isn't it, how that last month overlaps both relationships. i guess sometimes history does repeat itself.
i guess it's just hard. realizing this is reality, and he did move on. the inevitable did really happen. and you became just another face in the halls. but even harder, is watching. and worrying. yeah, i moved on. i'm over him. but i didn't just stop caring. everyone can see what's happening with you. and the hardest part is knowing that we're not good enough friends anymore that we can dicuss it..
my life is working out. i'm happier than ever. and i truly hope you can say the same. just know, you weren't forgotten. you'll never be just another face to me. my feelings have definitely changed, but i still care.
i guess it's just hard. realizing this is reality, and he did move on. the inevitable did really happen. and you became just another face in the halls. but even harder, is watching. and worrying. yeah, i moved on. i'm over him. but i didn't just stop caring. everyone can see what's happening with you. and the hardest part is knowing that we're not good enough friends anymore that we can dicuss it..
my life is working out. i'm happier than ever. and i truly hope you can say the same. just know, you weren't forgotten. you'll never be just another face to me. my feelings have definitely changed, but i still care.
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