because everyone's heart breaks. it's life.

dear girl. 

you'd have to be pretty new to my blog, or my life, to not know that i kinda had a relationship at the beginning of this year. if you would've asked me at the time, i'd have said 'best friends' but obviously it was more. he meant a lot to me. you can go back and read those stories if you'd like, but basically what happened, is i opened up my heart. let someone in, and it didn't quite work out. and maybe you're saying, yeah it was probably just a little crush and he didn't end up liking you back. but there was a lot more to it, i promise, i know exactly how you feel. and now, maybe i'd say it was just a typical high school fling. and like every story ends, it did end, and it was rough. and i was hurt. it wasn't his fault, or mine, it just didn't work out. 
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but just promise me you won't give up. it got brought up with some of my friends the other night, and at that moment, everything was so clear. more than ever before. it was perfectly clear to me why it didn't work out. not the cause of the problems during the relationship, but just why it ended when it did. that small stage of my life was over. and i had new things in store. 
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the first couple months with him, i thought i was happier than ever. and when it was over, i longed to have that happiness back. wondering how i could ever find it after my heart had been torn apart. i pretended to be fine on the outside, because of course that's what you have to do. and if you asked me how it all managed to work out, i really don't even know.
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we decided we'd stay best friends. but that didn't happen, not even a little, and yeah, it did kill me at first. especially as all the little secrets and truths came out. but i'm realizing that as people slip out of your life, others step in. and i know that how it worked out really is for the better. not just for me either, he's much happier now with her. and i'm so much happier with my life now, and that's what we both would want. if you'd have asked me even 3 months ago, this isn't how i would tell you it would end. not even close, but it is. and quite honestly, it's right. not perfect. but i wouldn't have it any other way at all.
so don't give up. please, please don't. because it does work out. and it's beautiful how it does. 
and if you ever need someone to talk to, comment, call me, let's hang out, or whatever. i'm not an expert on the subject, but i know exactly how you feel. and it does pass.
sincerely, brit. (: