dixie boy.

he's a boy who i doubt was ever even mentioned here.
one that most my friends probly never even heard about.. and if any, very little.
it was a busy point in all our lives. the peak of summer. the middle of july.
i only knew him for a week. less.. but with him, something sparked in me.
i was smitten. harder than ever before.
and if i'm being honest, this kid i swore was literally my soul mate.
that impossible mold i've made. the one everyone makes fun of, because they say he doesn't exist.
with all his imperfections, he fit the mold perfectly..
and we made plans.. of everything and more that we were going to do..
and with a hug. it all just ended.

none of the plans went through, and i haven't seen him since.
our lives went their own ways. and i left it at that.
we talked on the phone a couple times. and texted every so often.
but neither of those ever do justice. we're busy people. i didn't want to be a bother.
i let things slip away. pushed you back into the furthest regions of my mind.
why bother with something that nothing would become of?
and then he texted me again. randomly.
and it was as though in an instant, everything flooded back.
knocked me off my feet. and i'm drowning all over again.
maybe.. i'm still holding out. wishing.. waiting.. hoping.