that i will be able to trust them and gain their trust too.
i'm an extremely open person. and even if we just met. i will probably tell you all about whatever is on my mind. i don't like secrets at all. and i really am willing to tell my best friends absolutely everything.
well, there was a girl i used to be best friends with. within weeks of meeting, we trusted each other with everything. when i needed help i went to her. and she would come to me. we knew everything about each other. and i thought this is how things would always be. well somewhere in the story, she decided she didn't care anymore. she simply stopped being my friend. she ignored me, was rude to me, and talked behind my back constantly. i sensed something was wrong. but i didn't want to believe it. she was my best friend. and i didn't want to give up on her. i cried over it. all the time. evenutally we talked things out, and became best friends again. and again i trusted her. but it was like pushing repeat. because really nothing ever changed. over and over i would forgive and trust her and the same things happened every time.
and that's what hurts me most. is when someone that i trusted lets me down. i think about it constantly. and can't focus on anything else. it makes me mad to be around them, because i trusted them, and they turned their back on me. and also, i'll cry. a lot. because i love them, and want to believe they're better.
i don't hold grudges at all. and i'll forgive them quickly. which usually is pushing repeat.
but i'm done with the tears. maybe i'm finally learning. that trust is something that has to be earned. and forgiveness shouldn't always mean trust...
i'm an extremely open person. and even if we just met. i will probably tell you all about whatever is on my mind. i don't like secrets at all. and i really am willing to tell my best friends absolutely everything.
well, there was a girl i used to be best friends with. within weeks of meeting, we trusted each other with everything. when i needed help i went to her. and she would come to me. we knew everything about each other. and i thought this is how things would always be. well somewhere in the story, she decided she didn't care anymore. she simply stopped being my friend. she ignored me, was rude to me, and talked behind my back constantly. i sensed something was wrong. but i didn't want to believe it. she was my best friend. and i didn't want to give up on her. i cried over it. all the time. evenutally we talked things out, and became best friends again. and again i trusted her. but it was like pushing repeat. because really nothing ever changed. over and over i would forgive and trust her and the same things happened every time.
and that's what hurts me most. is when someone that i trusted lets me down. i think about it constantly. and can't focus on anything else. it makes me mad to be around them, because i trusted them, and they turned their back on me. and also, i'll cry. a lot. because i love them, and want to believe they're better.
i don't hold grudges at all. and i'll forgive them quickly. which usually is pushing repeat.
but i'm done with the tears. maybe i'm finally learning. that trust is something that has to be earned. and forgiveness shouldn't always mean trust...
remember my stories about "j"? His name is really Zach Facemyer. As you can tell by my most recent post, i forgive way too easily. I still cry myself to sleep every so often because of him.
ReplyDeleteMaybe we are wayy too much alike.
I feel like so much could be learned about ourselves, if we actually met.. maybe?
ps. i adore your blog. forever!