please just make things better.

high school is different. it's change... and i'm not okay with it..

can i please just go back to junior high..? because in junior high i always found a friend to walk through the halls with me. my classes were full of people i could honestly call friends. at lunch i always knew exactly where to sit, and where everyone was and would be. our spot along the wall was perfect. everyone would come by and talk to us and it was the highlight the day.math was hard but i managed and all my friends were in it with me.. 

and now i don't know what to do.. 

i walk through the halls and only see unfamiliar faces or people who i'm not acquainted with.. in class i have lots of friends but it's not the same.. lunch wasn't even that great. we haven't claimed a place to be our own yet.. which i guess no one has. but even when we walked around we didn't see and talk to everyone like we used to...  we don't rule the school anymore.. and math.. why they heck am i a sophomore in precalc?! honestly brit. what was i thinking? i know two people in the class. i look around and see everyone whose hearts are set upon math. the math geeks that are brilliant and will probly do something in life like discover the cure for cancer. i'm not one of them. i'm the one who dreams of being a cosmetologist and a 6th grade teacher. i do math because i can, if i try my hardest, really i'd rather be writing.. or creating.. something artistic and unique. i don't memorize concepts and formulas.. and an A in the class? with 100% on all assignments you have to get atleast an 89% on the tests... last year, that was a good score for me. and when i left school, instead of seeing all my friends on the way out and talking and sharing stories with them, i was once again in the center of  mass amounts of people.. i saw my friends but they were all rushing in different directions.

it just isn't the same. 

and more than anything i wish it could be.. ):