dream.

my eyes may be focused on the teacher, or reading a history book, but my mind is in a whole other world. i can sit listening to a lecture quietly, or be writing an essay, but then leave, or look back, only to realize i didn't learn anything i should've. 

if there's windows, i'm usually lost somewhere out there. lately, it's been wishing that the grass was green. that there was leaves on the trees. that i could feel the warmth of the sun rather than be stuck in a classroom staring out the drab, lifeless winter. 

i often wonder about people. the girl sitting next to me. the kid tapping his pencil on the other side of the room... what they're really like, not what they are on the surface that everyone sees, but what really goes on underneath. i wonder about what they're thinking at the moment, perhaps how they didn't get enough sleep, how they wish this lecture was over, or maybe their mind has wandered to thinking about getting up the nerve to talk to that girl or guy at lunch. i wonder where they'll go in life, if they'll graduate high school, or go to college, the type of person they'll marry, and what their kids will be like. 

i dream about my life. if i'm doing things right. if today will end up to be just another day. if i'll come to the end only to realize that nothing spectacular has happened. i think about my husband. wherever he may be, and what he's doing right now... i think about if i've met him, or if he's just out there waiting to meet me. 

i think about how in the world i'll ever make it through high school. how i'll ever make it through three more years, of lectures, and homework, and tests... and if it's only supposed to get harder...? how will i ever make it through.

and often times, as much as i might try to avoid it, my mind usually wanders back to that kid. wishing he would like me. and then that other one. wondering, if i'll ever even see him again. or if he was just another person, come and gone. 

i obviously have a short attention span, and an even lower level of focus. 

but hey, i'm a dreamer. 

a happy post.

because i feel as if one is necessary after that rant because i really have been in an amazing mood. (:
i like that we had a short day today because of student led conferences.

tomorrow the band, orchestra, and only some of the choir are visiting the elementary schools.
beth dropped out, which left an empty spot. so i get to go.(:

this also means i'm missing my math test. giving me extra time to study. and meaning i won't have to do my homework. (:

the boy and his girlfriend broke up. so he talked to us again for the first time in a long while. (:

lunch continues to be the highlight of my day. so many funny things that happen.
sometimes we wink at people, just because. we're awkward.

there's a stake dance saturday. sooo pumped! (:
oh wait. it gets better. 80's. oh my heck. can't even wait!

well that's all.
sorry i haven't been posting...
be grateful, because tomorrow's friday.
love, brit. (:

p.s. are you aware that some people have only a tiny bit of cartilage in the end of their nose? you can't tell by looking, you have to physically touch it. it feels squishy and almost hollow..? 
(and now i'm sure you just checked to see if your nose lacked cartilage. :)

if the snows gotten you down...

and your monday is feeling lifeless and cold...

make friends with young 'uns on the bus.

watch disney channel.  

change all the names on your contact list to secret code names.

 such as foxy lady, thing 1, thing 2, and fluffybunny. 

throw surprise parties. with posters that say "welcome to...." nevermind. 

even if they're not so much of a surprise...

eat banana splits...

and have dance parties, even if you can't dance.

take a long bath, shave your legs, and paint your toenails hot-pink  

and hopefully at that point, the cold won't seem so bad. (:

what's running through my mind..

yes. this is my 4th post today. 3rd in the last hour... 

paula abdul's "Live to Dance?" i love it so much now. (: 

if you do watch, vote for vibe. and also, keep your eye out for the tall blonde kid.  

that's cole. and he's real cute. (:

a couple nights ago i had a dream that i was Barbie. dancing on stage with Ken. (yes we were actual plastic figures.) he felt he wasn't strong enough to do the lift, so made me do it. i dropped him. then broke up with him on stage. weeeird dream right? i have dreams like this often. 

yesterday was 1/11/11. i missed 1:11am (obviously) 

then 11:11am, and 1:11pm. 

i was determined not to miss my last chance for 11:11 on 1/11/11 so i stayed up, just to wish. 

and made an amazing wish. (: 

this morning we were out of hot water. so i stuck my head into a freezing cold tub to wash it. that was just the start of a not so great day. 

bad days just make me more determined to make the next one amazing. 

i find it funny when guys constantly brag about their weight lifting. especially during young mens when they do it extra loud to be sure that the near by young women will hear... (:

i have truly amazing friends. that care for me so much, and show me that every day. today when i was just exhausted, they saw that, and made sure i was okay. (: because they truly care. 

 going to young womens is always sure to brighten your day. (:

i once wrote 3 pages. about one person. 

just to clear my head. 

ever read this blog? i suggest you do. she's adorable. (:

and now i suppose i should really go to bed. because obviously, it's passed my bed time...

and yes, i'm aware my blog looks like a mess. i'll fix it... 

when i get around to it. which will be who knows when...(:

i'm sorry. i didn't miss you.

(a conversation between me and my 9 year old sister a couple days ago...)

her: aren't you like so excited to go back to school?

me: uhmm no, not really... at all. 

her: like not even a little bit?
me: mmm nope.

her: i am! because like... i miss all my teachers and everything!

oh how i wish i still thought that way. dear teachers, please don't be offended that i don't miss you... you just have a tendency to complicate my life. with excess work, stress, and cramming more information into my brain than i think is necessary.
also, school means more people, specifically hormonally imbalanced teenagers who cause drama. *dislike*

and as for missing my friends... well i haven't missed them because anyone i would've missed, i hung out with (:

okay. i hate pessimists and look at me. i'm sorry for this little rant. it's just... school isn't currently my favorite place to be... and this happens to be my least favorite time of the year... no breaks from school. cold and dreary out side. lots of snow. nothing to really look forward too...
but, i guess there's nothing i can do about that, just smile and make each day worth it. (:
perhaps i'll bake cookies or have a dance party. (:

and now it should be summer (:

Christmas is over, therefore we have no need for snow. 

so how about now it's summer? preferably above 85*. 

last night around 10:00 my Dad asked if i was willing to speak in church. 

i accepted. it's just not something that really scares me. 

can we please just not even talk about school? 

it stresses me out waaay to much. 

okay we're done. 

i have sooo many goals scarmbled in my head. 

i'll try to make sense out of them. 

one will definitely be to become more productive. 

or... less time on the computer.

my blog is in serious need of a make over. 

it's driving me crazy. 

i wish my posts had more pictures. 

i wish i had a camera. 

this morning i tried on atleast 10 different white shirts.

i love people who give you genuine compliments.

once i start a post, about a million more post ideas come to mind, 

as to why i usually don't just do one post. 

did you know going to bed late really can cause cancer?

oprah taught me. 

sometimes. i have beth withdrawls. and wonder if it's healthy.

i crave summer. soooo much. 

i even put on my swimsuit the other day. 

just for fun. 

i would love school soooo much, 

if biology and math weren't a part of it. 

hoodies. i'm in love. 
cheez-its are my favorite. and addicting.

i really really should start working out or i'll die when we go back to gym....

and this is just a portion of my random, scattered thoughts.

say what?

random nonsense on a sunday afternoon...
miley revealed her secret. does this mean no more hannah montanna...?

my hair gets sun bleached in the summer, and so in the winter the roots of course grow out darker. this.. could be a problem.

it's november. please. don't listen christmas music... not yet.

i wish ohh so badly that i could drive. this thought occurs daily. multiple times.

i obviously switch my blog around way to much (the header) i make one and think, oh i like this! i'll keep it! and a couple weeks later i'm sick of it. i apologize.

the "daily favorites of the past" page got really messed up. i got frustrated and deleted it.

i ate the last pudding pack in the storage room the other day... what a sad day. i counted once and i had eaten over 20. that is extremely unhealthy.

i have a major procrastination problem. there is no denying it. i often times do save all my homework to the last possible night around 9:00.

i found out how to upload new fonts onto my computer. it made me real happy (:

have you ever read "songs of solomon" in your bible? pg. 856? just scan through it... i hope it's not disrespectful to say that it's hilarious. cause it is. i have not laughed that hard in a long time. read it, you'll see what i mean. (:

for organizations sake.

these drafts seem to just sit there and fill space. so enjoy. 

9-1-10 "wednesdays. continue to please me."

although monday and tuesday seemed to have been better. today was good. i could barely get out of bed this morning because i was so sore. and i struggled to get ready. maybe i shouldn't miss a month of gym ever again.

but it was good to know my workout was a success. and after school? it was nice. i did pretty much nothing. i got most my homework done though. and mr. farnsworth. his homework assignments are lame.and extremely time consuming. but since its wednesday. i had time to do it all. of course young womens was great. and of course i should be in bed right now.

but i'm not.

8-18 "its freezing my vocal cords!" 

this morning when i awoke, young women were frantically pulling out clothes and putting them everywhere in my front yard. so quickly got ready and joined in on the chaos. what was it? free clothes pretty much. a clothing swap basically. there were some interesting things. but i fancied these. (insert picture of ugly shoes) 

and to celebrate it being over. we got sonic slushes. i'm definitely a fan of this 

8-17 "we're all two-faced"

considering we always say we hate those two faced people. no matter what you are not always the same person. depending on the crowd your with your different. family. strangers. best friends. the "cool" crowd. there are probly few, if any, people in this world whose personalities aren't effected by their peers..

10-3 "voodoo perhaps?"

apparentally they threw darts at my face. they called me their friend. they told me their secrets. and then for no reason decided to hate me. maybe we should all just get pictures off facebook, hang them up on our wall and aim the darts toward their face. were they hoping for a voodoo effect of some sort? that's real nice. i'm sorry that as far as i'm concerned. it hasn't worked. 

10-5 "why?"

why would you tell my best friend something about me and expect me not to hear?